933

The reason I don't like to tune in and listen to the radio on Saturday nights esp 933....

Mask

Standing by to put on another strong smiley mask to the outside world..

Few months ago was thinking what could be worse.. Now am thinking when can worse stop coming..

Whatever will be will be..

The 2 Brothers

Unbalanced

The more years you have been through the more things you will see. For the same thing people can do it so differently.

Starting the unbalance will lead to unbalance. 

Keeping silent doesn't mean don't mind.  Rather it is more of not worth to waste energy on such things.

QW

有刺的蔷薇

From me to me:

http://thoughtcatalog.com/bogart-lee/2014/08/9-ways-to-love-a-mood-swinger/ 

The list of things to learn and to conquer myself. 

Lego~

1 picture reminds of the whole happening behind this day. Unfavourable things appear but is the start of interesting happenings. And of course for all to happen, it have to be the right people hanging out together.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q9habtomlsU

Now I know 18 metres is fun for me. Next target: Revenge of the Mummy. XD

7月14

Was talking with colleague from other department about door opening and fate (缘分) between people. The surprise look on her face when I told her that I'm the quiet and usually the don't talk much type. I was and now I still always am. It really depends on who I'm with.  

A gets along well with B & C. But doesn't mean that B & C get along well with each other.  Both doors have to be opened for things to work out. It would be useless if one side refuse to open his/her door.

For me is.. whomever you are.. My door is closed but unlock. 
If you open your door, I'll open mine.
If you have opened your door but tempting to close it, I'll get out and slam your door myself. 

Special thanks to the person who listen and help me to stay thru my down time. But doubt you still read this coz you not blogging le. :P

And of course not to mentioned there are still some others.. (:

The songs

Dont know my k songs fall under these categories. .

Hit 3 out of 10.

http://theysaysg.com/singaporean-ktv-habits/why-singaporean-will-sing-and-listen-to-this-10-friendzone-songs-in-ktv-no-matter-how-old-they-are/

Hit 4.5/10

http://theysaysg.com/singaporean-ktv-habits/10-duet-chinese-songs-singaporean-couples-sings-in-ktv-to-boost-their-love-relationship/

Hidden meaning.. 4 out of 10.. :

http://theysaysg.com/singaporean-ktv-habits/10-old-school-chinese-songs-singaporean-will-continue-to -sing-in-2014-for-the-hidden-meaning/

4.5/10:

For that someone. Wanting's In my song...
http://theysaysg.com/singaporean-love-relationship/stage-1%e2%80%b3-10-chinese-secret-admire-songs-all-singaporean-will-sing-in-ktv-for-that-someone/

2.5/10:

寂寞寂寞就好 - surprisingly, this song is in the list..|
如果没有你 - waterfall automatically when I play the song.. the song and the lyrics..
http://theysaysg.com/singaporean-love-relationship/stage-8-10-chinese-missing-songs-all-singaporean-will-sing-in-ktv-after-a-breakup-stage-7/

Not forgetting.. Other fav songs.

Aug

Maybe this is the reason why.. 

Lost me.. missing me.. finding me...

千言万语

1001 stories..

Added and took off entries. Tried putting some in words but things turns out badly..

No matter how heart broken how upset I'm, I wouldn't just stop and let things carry on this way.

自己都过不了自己那关。怎么能眼睁睁看着事情发生呢。

14714

Saddie day.

伤口还没好又有多一把刀刺过来。肉有多厚，伤就有多深 。。

虽然一直沉默。。有不同反应。。但其实都是一样的。

Duh

The feeling you get when you are

Truely still upset over things +
Still healing yourself +
Finding happy things to take it off your mind +
Fighting +
Struggling +
Adjusting yourself ( certain things cant change in 1 min) +
New work +
More study..
Can't blame those who don't know. .

But how to take it when people keep adding peppers all over you while you are trying to apply medicine over your injuries?

苦中寻乐

也许没那么苦，但其实也没那么乐。

3月

短短的三个月。。却有好大的分别。。真的差好多好多。。

心情 。。

灰心。。心痛。。伤心。。心寒。。心碎。。心酸。。心结。。

失望。。失落。。低落。。空虚。。

不存在的东西，也许可以假装。。可一直存在的东西。。难以假装。。

最辛苦的时候。。在没人的关心安慰下，自己就这样慢慢的一个人渡过。。比较起来，还有什么东西会比那时更糟更难受?

Reactive

Mood swing with high frequency.. slightly more emotional than usual or on the way to depression?

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-2044877/Could-YOU-victim-smiling-depression.html

Stones, pebbles & water

Repeated before but an updated one..

In a container..
Let big stones be unhappiness,

small pebbles be small happiness,
water be your life..
 

Let the small pebbles get through in between the big stones, let the water flow through all the pebbles. Allow the small pebbles to move through the empty spaces between the stones and the water to fill up the rest..
Don't let them get stuck and stop just because of the big stones.

Let them flow.

 

 

 

Stumbled across 1 article..

Being realistic is:

 

When someone who you have been in a relationship with isn’t willing to fight for what you had, don’t keep trying to make it work.

Anyone who is not willing to fight for you, is not worth fighting for.

 

Source: http://thoughtcatalog.com/katie-wilhelm/2014/06/how-you-know-its-time-to-give-up-on-him/

Hh

Heh hei n the house ~

- 106

还我

Merely pasting the lyrics..

S.H.E - 还我
用你吻我的嘴 吞下自己的泪
这样应该算是两不相欠
你残留的气味 让寂寞去溶解
浪漫迎接没光临的明天

还你 相信过承诺 美丽过的美梦
心突然好空 有没有什么要还我
被退还的以后 被偿还的愧疚
我都不要了 请把快乐还我

还原每个从前 清掉你的世界
还给自己没爱过的昨天
曾奉陪的时间 拿时间来销毁
可是回忆应该放谁哪边

还你 相信过的承诺 美丽过的美梦
心突然好空 有没有什么要还我
被退还的以后 被偿还的愧疚
我都不要了 请把快乐还我

还我 你没收的承诺 你捡走的美梦
我心里好空 为什么你还不还我
被退还的以后 被偿还的愧疚
我都不要了 请把我还给我

还原每个从前 清掉你的世界
还给自己没爱过的昨天

Just gotten my first present for this year. When benefits outweigh the cost, I'll go for it.

六月的雨-2014

六月的雨-完整MV版: http://youtu.be/svjJwabqE5E

The rain doesn't fall from the sky but rather, from elsewhere..

The vvip take turns to leave me.. One by one...

Saddie

Time

Will tell

Things will show..

I'll prove myself.... What I'm always am.