Year 2014

2014 is coming to the end.. Difference between what happened & what I did last year and this year. New wish list and to do list is up. No looking backward, only looking ahead.

以毒攻毒。Fighting!

Breakaway

Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway: http://youtu.be/c-3vPxKdj6o

Empty vessel makes most noise.

Imu

http://instagram.com/p/vIJ4fTQs5p/

Perception

The way she look at me and smile was the same way I looked at other people when i was young.

Reaching home after dinner wasn't as tiring as I expect. At least I'm happy with what I'm doing.

火焰

火燃烧久了.. 也会渐渐熄灭。。

933

The reason I don't like to tune in and listen to the radio on Saturday nights esp 933....

Mask

Standing by to put on another strong smiley mask to the outside world..

Few months ago was thinking what could be worse.. Now am thinking when can worse stop coming..

Whatever will be will be..

The 2 Brothers

Unbalanced

The more years you have been through the more things you will see. For the same thing people can do it so differently.

Starting the unbalance will lead to unbalance. 

Keeping silent doesn't mean don't mind.  Rather it is more of not worth to waste energy on such things.

QW

有刺的蔷薇

From me to me:

http://thoughtcatalog.com/bogart-lee/2014/08/9-ways-to-love-a-mood-swinger/ 

The list of things to learn and to conquer myself. 

Lego~

1 picture reminds of the whole happening behind this day. Unfavourable things appear but is the start of interesting happenings. And of course for all to happen, it have to be the right people hanging out together.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q9habtomlsU

Now I know 18 metres is fun for me. Next target: Revenge of the Mummy. XD

7月14

Was talking with colleague from other department about door opening and fate (缘分) between people. The surprise look on her face when I told her that I'm the quiet and usually the don't talk much type. I was and now I still always am. It really depends on who I'm with.  

A gets along well with B & C. But doesn't mean that B & C get along well with each other.  Both doors have to be opened for things to work out. It would be useless if one side refuse to open his/her door.

For me is.. whomever you are.. My door is closed but unlock. 
If you open your door, I'll open mine.
If you have opened your door but tempting to close it, I'll get out and slam your door myself. 

Special thanks to the person who listen and help me to stay thru my down time. But doubt you still read this coz you not blogging le. :P

And of course not to mentioned there are still some others.. (:

The songs

Dont know my k songs fall under these categories. .

Hit 3 out of 10.

http://theysaysg.com/singaporean-ktv-habits/why-singaporean-will-sing-and-listen-to-this-10-friendzone-songs-in-ktv-no-matter-how-old-they-are/

Hit 4.5/10

http://theysaysg.com/singaporean-ktv-habits/10-duet-chinese-songs-singaporean-couples-sings-in-ktv-to-boost-their-love-relationship/

Hidden meaning.. 4 out of 10.. :

http://theysaysg.com/singaporean-ktv-habits/10-old-school-chinese-songs-singaporean-will-continue-to -sing-in-2014-for-the-hidden-meaning/

4.5/10:

For that someone. Wanting's In my song...
http://theysaysg.com/singaporean-love-relationship/stage-1%e2%80%b3-10-chinese-secret-admire-songs-all-singaporean-will-sing-in-ktv-for-that-someone/

2.5/10:

寂寞寂寞就好 - surprisingly, this song is in the list..|
如果没有你 - waterfall automatically when I play the song.. the song and the lyrics..
http://theysaysg.com/singaporean-love-relationship/stage-8-10-chinese-missing-songs-all-singaporean-will-sing-in-ktv-after-a-breakup-stage-7/

Not forgetting.. Other fav songs.

Aug

Maybe this is the reason why.. 

Lost me.. missing me.. finding me...

千言万语

1001 stories..

Added and took off entries. Tried putting some in words but things turns out badly..

No matter how heart broken how upset I'm, I wouldn't just stop and let things carry on this way.

自己都过不了自己那关。怎么能眼睁睁看着事情发生呢。

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Saddie day.

伤口还没好又有多一把刀刺过来。肉有多厚，伤就有多深 。。

虽然一直沉默。。有不同反应。。但其实都是一样的。

Duh

The feeling you get when you are

Truely still upset over things +
Still healing yourself +
Finding happy things to take it off your mind +
Fighting +
Struggling +
Adjusting yourself ( certain things cant change in 1 min) +
New work +
More study..
Can't blame those who don't know. .

But how to take it when people keep adding peppers all over you while you are trying to apply medicine over your injuries?

苦中寻乐

也许没那么苦，但其实也没那么乐。

3月

短短的三个月。。却有好大的分别。。真的差好多好多。。

心情 。。

灰心。。心痛。。伤心。。心寒。。心碎。。心酸。。心结。。

失望。。失落。。低落。。空虚。。

不存在的东西，也许可以假装。。可一直存在的东西。。难以假装。。

最辛苦的时候。。在没人的关心安慰下，自己就这样慢慢的一个人渡过。。比较起来，还有什么东西会比那时更糟更难受?

Reactive

Mood swing with high frequency.. slightly more emotional than usual or on the way to depression?

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-2044877/Could-YOU-victim-smiling-depression.html

Stones, pebbles & water

Repeated before but an updated one..

In a container..
Let big stones be unhappiness,

small pebbles be small happiness,
water be your life..
 

Let the small pebbles get through in between the big stones, let the water flow through all the pebbles. Allow the small pebbles to move through the empty spaces between the stones and the water to fill up the rest..
Don't let them get stuck and stop just because of the big stones.

Let them flow.

 

 

 

Stumbled across 1 article..

Being realistic is:

 

When someone who you have been in a relationship with isn’t willing to fight for what you had, don’t keep trying to make it work.

Anyone who is not willing to fight for you, is not worth fighting for.

 

Source: http://thoughtcatalog.com/katie-wilhelm/2014/06/how-you-know-its-time-to-give-up-on-him/

Hh

Heh hei n the house ~

- 106

还我

Merely pasting the lyrics..

S.H.E - 还我
用你吻我的嘴 吞下自己的泪
这样应该算是两不相欠
你残留的气味 让寂寞去溶解
浪漫迎接没光临的明天

还你 相信过承诺 美丽过的美梦
心突然好空 有没有什么要还我
被退还的以后 被偿还的愧疚
我都不要了 请把快乐还我

还原每个从前 清掉你的世界
还给自己没爱过的昨天
曾奉陪的时间 拿时间来销毁
可是回忆应该放谁哪边

还你 相信过的承诺 美丽过的美梦
心突然好空 有没有什么要还我
被退还的以后 被偿还的愧疚
我都不要了 请把快乐还我

还我 你没收的承诺 你捡走的美梦
我心里好空 为什么你还不还我
被退还的以后 被偿还的愧疚
我都不要了 请把我还给我

还原每个从前 清掉你的世界
还给自己没爱过的昨天

Just gotten my first present for this year. When benefits outweigh the cost, I'll go for it.

六月的雨-2014

六月的雨-完整MV版: http://youtu.be/svjJwabqE5E

The rain doesn't fall from the sky but rather, from elsewhere..

The vvip take turns to leave me.. One by one...

Saddie

Time

Will tell

Things will show..

I'll prove myself.... What I'm always am.

累

压抑。。
把一样一样从心里掏出来。。然后一个一个埋起来。。

想习惯，可有些东西，有些事情，有些人始终还是不一样，难以取代，难以习惯。。

没了安全感。。 就一直挣扎。。一直执着。。
真的。。好累好累

Quote

时间，会沉淀最真的情感；
风雨，会考验最暖的陪伴。
走远的，只是过眼云烟；
留下的，才是值得珍惜的情缘。
来得热烈，未必守得长久；
爱得平淡，未必无情无义。
眼睛看到的许是假象，
心的感受才最真实；
耳朵听到的许是虚幻，
心的聆听才最重要。
时间会告诉我们，
简单的喜欢，最长远；
平凡中的陪伴，最心安；
懂你的人，最温暖 <3

http://thoughtcatalog.com/albert-vaisman/2013/12/9-things-that-separate-you-from-successful-people/

I am not giving up that easily.. if you don't try you wouldnt know the outcome.

http://thoughtcatalog.com/amy-morin/2013/12/13-things-mentally-strong-people-dont-do/

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Is is is, not is not
Is is not not, not is not is.

Time will reveal  or let things work itself out..

The feeling of the warmth when the people whom you talk to / approach are there to listen to you and help / teach you especially when you are down/run into problems.

Can't help it and still feeling down quite often but hoping things will turn out better than the first half of the year.

- Touched & always remembering in my heart

Dog Depressed

https://sg.news.yahoo.com/blogs/pets/6-signs-dog-depressed-150100660.html

Feels like me.
Perhaps I need a vet too.

That's why now it rains everyday?

Sighs

雨蒙蒙

外表嬉皮笑脸，心却伤痕累累。。
一直不停哭泣。。
情越深，心越痛。。。
放不掉，泪在飘。。。。
东西是死的，人是活的。决定是在你手里。选择走哪一条路也是自己。
当你选择了放弃，就是永远的逃避。
若你没放弃，一直奋斗，努力，就会有希望，有结果。
我证明了这事实。5年的努力坚持奋斗， 我得到了我一直想要的东西，有了结果。
From May to May..

The rose

阿桑 - the rose: http://youtu.be/vhpKcyQZQg0

The rose, with the seed but without the sun.. Can't grow... Will wither and die.

Sob

14514

11 days to 6 years.. Wanna be happy but can't feel it.

Forever accurate prediction. Maybe have to hang out near garden with  pond / river / lake?

Forever something unhappy on days with dates 14 and over a few things at one time. Really isn't a good year...

Not that I ever take things for granted or don't cherish.. But it feels like the other side don't bother much, and yet here I am trying to guess and ended up getting myself upset and hurt. Sad-die..

- stupid girl

Me

https://iphone.facebook.com/buddylist.php?ref=bookmark&__user=785073254#!/883jiafm/photos/a.432471649135.223822.315868674135/10152461518364136/?type=1&source=46

- always zx

五月的天

The special song for May.

Countdown ~

YA!

Something which I haven't done for quite a awhile - a place where I can be transparent, link to outside world but none of the people who know me knows about it.

Here are some:

Q: Fav alphabets?
A: J. S. (I always have a thing with letter 'S')

Q: Describe your life in 1 word
A: Terrible

心眼

看在眼里
记在心里
永不忘记

心灰意冷

No wonder it is raining today..

Tsk

 

The second sentence should be:
彼はあまりにも気を取られました。彼はあなたを忘れ。

Ref: google's translator.


English:
He was obviously too distracted that he has forgotten to reply you.

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随着时间一直相处。。
人的好，人的不好。。慢慢出现。。

看人对待的人，对你好可能是真心。。或者是因为你有利用价值，需要你。。

人心难测。。面前对你笑。。心里想的也许是另一套。。

你永远不会知道接下来会发生什么事，为何发生。。

Lost

If the someone whom you wish to talk to and listen to doesn't bother you much.

Skip and find S.O.M.E.O.N.E-E. L.S.E

Aura: dark grey

Peace!

Happiest, most relax & enjoyable moment at home when..

Home alone
Radio blasting
With the songs
For which I know the lyrics
And some are my favorite
= k time!

=DDD

Warmth

One small concern from an old friend makes my day.

One tiny little thing done for/coz of me can means alot. One small thing I hope for but people don't bother me with, will mean much more damages than usual.

I remember every single thing well.
I may not revenge but I will react.

Time to see no evil hear no evil feel no evil.

- Words of a typical cancerian

Bean

Not the movie but the song.
The things that happened.
The emotions.
The feelings.
The sadness..

:'(

Complicated

Things are dead, people are alive and changing. Maybe that's why sometimes things just get complicated. 

Earth is round. What goes round comes round...

What you see, the things beneath and the things behind the scene might be all different..

三月的雨

4th time in less than 2 weeks but this time for a slightly different reason...

束手无策，心乱如麻。Facts are facts. Truth are truth.

I can't ignore how I feel, can't control and hide how I react. This is what I am and always have been.

Looks like I really need to train myself twice as hard.

风

到底是哪来的风？？

为什么事事都不顺？

连上个厕所都会有人阻碍我？？？

十万个为什么！？！！

arghhh.....

153-15

终于遇到月圆的夜晚，原来真的是初15。

Work hard, study hard, but not forgetting to balance with life.  Most importantly.. having enough rest too.

313

Starting of official day.

Just need more time to handle..

Hope everything will turn out the right way..

Starry Starry Night - 1314 ♥

Description:
Night view
Stars
City lightings from nearby
Quietness
Peace
Windy
Lake

Very close to the type of places I always have been searching for.. :D

k~
xoxo

spider intestine happy

My English translation when I first heard this phrase. 知足常乐.

What you get to have might be what others always wanted. Be grateful with what you now have and cherish them. Zx.

Another new favorite version of old song.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DVllGoTImZg&feature=youtube_gdata_player

...

I'm okay. Everything will work out, will be fine.

I'm okay. I can still smile to others, still can do things normally.

But I'm lying..
.. To the whole world..
I'm not okay.. Not. Okay. At. All.

一直一心一意努力的想办法帮他们揭开心结。。 过了这么久我才刚刚发现其实他们两的心结加在一起，正是我心中的大结。。。。

后来后来

Watch "S.H.E [後來後來 After That] Official MV HD" on YouTube

Wonderful and meaningful lyrics.

Like to listen and like to sing are 2 different categories of songs.

Guess tpy is another of the special places with unforgettable memories especially after the 2 days..

Counting down to March ~

141514

看她生气，难过，心疼到落泪。。
看他已经下定决心。。

除了自己心碎一直哭。。继续像平常和他说我心中想说的话。。我还能做什么让我还在滴血的心觉得好一些？

现在真的好想好想像那晚一样。。可以看着你，一直能呆在你怀里，再让我好好的大声哭泣。。

Sam

有心不怕苦。若无心，就算再简单的东西也会变得多困难。

心心

别人最开心的时候可能是自己最伤心的时候。

开心就笑。伤心就哭。当心开始流血，心疼，心痛了，如果他人不再帮你疗伤，就让自己哭着哭着，跟随时间慢慢痊愈。。

https://iphone.facebook.com/HairstyleIdeas24/photos/a.578094965559664.1073741828.578087892227038/627548457280981/?type=1&source=48#!/story.php?story_fbid=822506417776465&id=153617234665390&ref=bookmark

Mars Vs Venus

Saw some people sharing it. Worth some thinking and also for those who haven't think through this before.

http://dernierevie.com/an-open-letter-to-women-what-men-really-want/

http://jennt1001.wordpress.com/2014/01/06/an-open-letter-to-men-what-women-really-think-you-want/

Is only 12 day of 2014 and my To-Do List is already covering up all the way till Oct? And is about 1 each month.. o.O

Indeed a special year. =D

Been happy for past 1 week finally got my voice back though my mind is still thinking of the songs which I didn't managed to finish coz of the coughing... (to be sing next session) =D

1414

Coincidence or not.. Things happened and very heavy rain in West area now.
The difference now is I will not join in the rain, not this time. Whatever.

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1314

First post!
First week of the year and I've got afew things to countdown to ~
Just received another piece of pleasant information yesterday. When you don't want to turn left + have been moving straight for quite a while, you can always turn right when a new path appears on your right. Yup. It's a deal.
Very special meaningful minute tonight. But not to be shared with people who said that one don't like something and yet sometimes still does the same to other people himself.  What you undo to others, others will undo to you.

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