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Less about fixing but more on remembering about me being myself. Not following others so much that I forgotten myself.

 

<3

And of course not forgetting new number 125. 

Saying Ok

Without meaning it. Ya, after what several times I really dont mean it. 

Whether if it is cruel or realistic and drawing lines because things are private limited. Although when put in all, internally somehow, there is still a limited - healthy boundaries

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做了该做的，大家开心，我表面开心。

那我要的，谁为我做，谁让我开心。。。

I can only rely on, believe, search for the cure and recuperate myself.. 

Iykyk

Flat Tail

When someone is at that standard, never drop to the same standard just to deal with them. Because we are not with that kind of standard.

The kind of reply you wouldnt want to know.. 

It started all cause of you because earth is round.

Is okay not to be okay. 

Breathe in. Breathe out. Eventually I'll be okay.

Warmth

Knowing for 6 years and now being long distance apart. Talking with hearts open and knowing things not known in the past. 

It's been long time since I feel the same kind of warmth... 

Not knowing if there is chance of seeing but no regrets of the past with these memories.. 

23 Apr

Jin sian. Feel my friends are much better.. 

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New sad/bad date - heygo closing. The place where I have gone to when I'm lonely or finding companion. And the live which motivates me to wake early esp my covid times. 

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Loads happened in the past 5 months, mainly in my worklife - at least is considered a good continuing step (not big change). 

And now I am satisfied with getting a one suiting my lifestyle, not my lifestye suiting the new one and be confirming next month (fingers crossed). The earlier colleague failed hers and left last week. The next one in line (me) inevitably am alarmed but shoud be able to pass based on the actions and the word to me - too beginning to feel like I'm part of the group

For the vacancy now, 2 friends fail the review so neither can be colleagues. While waiting for the replacement, the 2 months old me will help to cover small portions.

While people is enjoying somewhere out there, here I am busy entertaining myself. Who knows who is still reading this now or in future and anyone else I am willing to share this link with. And of course if this site is still in use. 

* the day i share this means inner wall opened

Fate

If it is meant to be then will meant to be.

https://thoughtcatalog.com/kirsten-corley/2017/03/if-two-people-are-meant-to-be-together-eventually-theyll-find-their-way-back/?utm_source=facebook&utm_medium=thoughtcatalog-main-social&utm_campaign=social

Sat Night

Past is past but cant help having the feeling.

Usually love listening to radio at night ever since incident at home when I was young but now avoiding chinese songs on radio for a reason.

After 1 day out and tried new things today.. guess I'm still missing my key...

Lost Key

Suddenly, I lost the key. Cannot find it though I'm feeling around.

Thats why small things do matters..

Not anywhere near to the level I guess

9 Aug Songs

On hearing those songs, the special feeling penatrate me again. The feeling and the celebration we had that time, wearing red and white jersey. With the photos we took.

Memories in Keppel <3

Xb

心病. Cant help the way i am feeling. Dont know the reason for the difference. Have to search for it or it wouldnt be healthy..

Instead of so happy I am so down. And should not be pms because I am easily affected by people..

White Blank Space

空白格

https://www.facebook.com/YES933/videos/4136076686493035/

May Day

Secretly or rather low profile updating haha. Glad blogger is still around~

56 my current colleague aka friend's birthday.

57 his date. 611 my date. Sad that I cannot be there but sort of in a good way I dont have to go thru and end up being the one to break down. I'm already having flashback since after knowing the news.

19 days left to 1 year.

2 months to golden day. Hehe.

And being in this weather makes me MISS being in water!!

1 Year

Is 1 year on 16 Feb already. No celebration of any sort even for the first but still there are things more important than celebrating.

Officially wfh for 1 year. Good and bad but also depends how you take it.

Nothing much I wanna write except to pen down about the two 1 years. Amazing how time flies without realising.

Shall end here for now~ Happy 7th of lunar~

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Some things to remind myself during these times..

Dont know why sad..

https://thoughtcatalog.com/colleen-gDIeorge/2016/03/read-this-when-youre-feeling-sad-and-dont-know-why/?fbclid=IwAR3YkFsXsdimTZbPSECRp8pkCvRVQJMuuafWPfYy772LHdRct7G88BUgZ

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So cute they have this in our staff portal. But I really want is my voucher. How I wish they would credit to bank account.

Sad-die birthday this year cause I still cannot get out though I have something extra together with me this year!! Not even in the mood to get a chocolate cake for myself this year.

Working and waiting for my day of independence. Although I am sort of "pampered" in some ways,when time comes, things will go turn out the way it will eventually. Cannot blame me cause I am conditioned this way.

Anyways, been a looooong time since my last post. Hopefully, blogger wont be down anytime during my lifetime. Else I wouldnt get to reminisce some of my memories.

Happy 13th years to my this blog. If in the mood, I shall change your skin (when miracles appear).

Wish for this year - unlimited wishes which will all come true.

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No way I can forget this date. I guess..

The day the moment the day the month..

An entry just to mark this day of 2 years ago.

Am glad this blogger not down yet even after years. At least still another media to look back into the past..

Here I am..

Still standing (firmly to the ground?) in the same place as I started walking on my own 1 year 1 month ago.

Way tooooo long since my latest post. As usual, am glad with all the ups and downs, I have gotten through and now getting well. With all the setbacks and the distractions, I think I realised my focus and direction despite having no clear goals.

Each step has its own good and bad. When we are more acceptable towards the bads, we will be more embraced with the goods and converting them into the happiness out from ourselves.

I am happy with where I am going towards now (until further notice).