3月

短短的三个月。。却有好大的分别。。真的差好多好多。。

心情 。。

灰心。。心痛。。伤心。。心寒。。心碎。。心酸。。心结。。

失望。。失落。。低落。。空虚。。

不存在的东西，也许可以假装。。可一直存在的东西。。难以假装。。

最辛苦的时候。。在没人的关心安慰下，自己就这样慢慢的一个人渡过。。比较起来，还有什么东西会比那时更糟更难受?

Reactive

Mood swing with high frequency.. slightly more emotional than usual or on the way to depression?

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-2044877/Could-YOU-victim-smiling-depression.html

Stones, pebbles & water

Repeated before but an updated one..

In a container..
Let big stones be unhappiness,

small pebbles be small happiness,
water be your life..
 

Let the small pebbles get through in between the big stones, let the water flow through all the pebbles. Allow the small pebbles to move through the empty spaces between the stones and the water to fill up the rest..
Don't let them get stuck and stop just because of the big stones.

Let them flow.

 

 

 

Stumbled across 1 article..

Being realistic is:

 

When someone who you have been in a relationship with isn’t willing to fight for what you had, don’t keep trying to make it work.

Anyone who is not willing to fight for you, is not worth fighting for.

 

Source: http://thoughtcatalog.com/katie-wilhelm/2014/06/how-you-know-its-time-to-give-up-on-him/

Hh

Heh hei n the house ~

- 106

还我

Merely pasting the lyrics..

S.H.E - 还我
用你吻我的嘴 吞下自己的泪
这样应该算是两不相欠
你残留的气味 让寂寞去溶解
浪漫迎接没光临的明天

还你 相信过承诺 美丽过的美梦
心突然好空 有没有什么要还我
被退还的以后 被偿还的愧疚
我都不要了 请把快乐还我

还原每个从前 清掉你的世界
还给自己没爱过的昨天
曾奉陪的时间 拿时间来销毁
可是回忆应该放谁哪边

还你 相信过的承诺 美丽过的美梦
心突然好空 有没有什么要还我
被退还的以后 被偿还的愧疚
我都不要了 请把快乐还我

还我 你没收的承诺 你捡走的美梦
我心里好空 为什么你还不还我
被退还的以后 被偿还的愧疚
我都不要了 请把我还给我

还原每个从前 清掉你的世界
还给自己没爱过的昨天

Just gotten my first present for this year. When benefits outweigh the cost, I'll go for it.

六月的雨-2014

六月的雨-完整MV版: http://youtu.be/svjJwabqE5E

The rain doesn't fall from the sky but rather, from elsewhere..

The vvip take turns to leave me.. One by one...

Saddie

Time

Will tell

Things will show..

I'll prove myself.... What I'm always am.

累

压抑。。
把一样一样从心里掏出来。。然后一个一个埋起来。。

想习惯，可有些东西，有些事情，有些人始终还是不一样，难以取代，难以习惯。。

没了安全感。。 就一直挣扎。。一直执着。。
真的。。好累好累

Quote

时间，会沉淀最真的情感；
风雨，会考验最暖的陪伴。
走远的，只是过眼云烟；
留下的，才是值得珍惜的情缘。
来得热烈，未必守得长久；
爱得平淡，未必无情无义。
眼睛看到的许是假象，
心的感受才最真实；
耳朵听到的许是虚幻，
心的聆听才最重要。
时间会告诉我们，
简单的喜欢，最长远；
平凡中的陪伴，最心安；
懂你的人，最温暖 <3

http://thoughtcatalog.com/albert-vaisman/2013/12/9-things-that-separate-you-from-successful-people/

I am not giving up that easily.. if you don't try you wouldnt know the outcome.

http://thoughtcatalog.com/amy-morin/2013/12/13-things-mentally-strong-people-dont-do/

245

Is is is, not is not
Is is not not, not is not is.

Time will reveal  or let things work itself out..

The feeling of the warmth when the people whom you talk to / approach are there to listen to you and help / teach you especially when you are down/run into problems.

Can't help it and still feeling down quite often but hoping things will turn out better than the first half of the year.

- Touched & always remembering in my heart

Dog Depressed

https://sg.news.yahoo.com/blogs/pets/6-signs-dog-depressed-150100660.html

Feels like me.
Perhaps I need a vet too.

That's why now it rains everyday?

Sighs

雨蒙蒙

外表嬉皮笑脸，心却伤痕累累。。
一直不停哭泣。。
情越深，心越痛。。。
放不掉，泪在飘。。。。
东西是死的，人是活的。决定是在你手里。选择走哪一条路也是自己。
当你选择了放弃，就是永远的逃避。
若你没放弃，一直奋斗，努力，就会有希望，有结果。
我证明了这事实。5年的努力坚持奋斗， 我得到了我一直想要的东西，有了结果。
From May to May..

The rose

阿桑 - the rose: http://youtu.be/vhpKcyQZQg0

The rose, with the seed but without the sun.. Can't grow... Will wither and die.

Sob

14514

11 days to 6 years.. Wanna be happy but can't feel it.

Forever accurate prediction. Maybe have to hang out near garden with  pond / river / lake?

Forever something unhappy on days with dates 14 and over a few things at one time. Really isn't a good year...

Not that I ever take things for granted or don't cherish.. But it feels like the other side don't bother much, and yet here I am trying to guess and ended up getting myself upset and hurt. Sad-die..

- stupid girl

Me

https://iphone.facebook.com/buddylist.php?ref=bookmark&__user=785073254#!/883jiafm/photos/a.432471649135.223822.315868674135/10152461518364136/?type=1&source=46

- always zx

五月的天

The special song for May.

Countdown ~

YA!

Something which I haven't done for quite a awhile - a place where I can be transparent, link to outside world but none of the people who know me knows about it.

Here are some:

Q: Fav alphabets?
A: J. S. (I always have a thing with letter 'S')

Q: Describe your life in 1 word
A: Terrible

心眼

看在眼里
记在心里
永不忘记

心灰意冷

No wonder it is raining today..

Tsk

 

The second sentence should be:
彼はあまりにも気を取られました。彼はあなたを忘れ。

Ref: google's translator.


English:
He was obviously too distracted that he has forgotten to reply you.